Confidence

Well I have to say that this blog has been inspired by the salsa I made for dinner tonight... it was well seasoned.
Anyhow I've been thinking about it lately but I think that I am more confident than I have ever been in my life and I guess I have to pay credit where it's due.  Now don't get my wrong but I've always been overly confident when it comes to brains (I mean I know I'm smart).  However everyone has their flaws and I've always been aware of mine... and upon coming to this country I think all of my flaws were amplified tenfold and I'm sure new ones arose.  My weight, my speaking ability, my shyness around strangers... nervousness, cooking ability and I'm sure there where many more...  It was all tenfold and it made me rather depressed...

Something about knowing that tomorrow marks a year in site is amazingly freeing.  I was walking down the street today after a meeting and even though the day didn't go as I planned and I didn't get everything done I still felt like I did more than most people could (or would want to).  I am not only fitter and cuter than when I got to this country but I'm sassier, a better cook, smarter, and happier.  I have the confidence that only an experience of being scared shitless by trainers, and then sent into a community of complete strangers and having to make it a home while developing some kind of job can give oneself.

I am content that most dominicans will never like my food (it's too spicy and lacks salt and sugar)  because I love to eat it so much I don't want to share...